On my own I think about whether I should choose someone who can be with me in my highest highs, or someone who can be there for me in my lowest lows. And I realise, who am I to choose?
What am I living for?
Talking to mindy has made me realise how wayward my priorities have grown. How far away from God, and His purpose in my life. I'm afraid this is just an impulse, some sort of a once-beautiful warped into an utter-mistake, because it was blossomed in my waywardness.
I am thankful for today. If anything, it is God's poignant reminder for me. In more lucid moments I do grasp the full understanding of what I should do, but in moments (like now) whitewashed in weariness I can only remember the What, but not the Why.
God is signalling to me to make a decision now. Now, without any putting off of the matter any further. I have told myself many times that should I be able to go back in time I would never make the wrong choice down the wrong path again, but Now that it seems like a replay I am struggling.
I need to make a decision. Or maybe, deep down I know I already have. I just need to stop putting it off and start acting on it.
I need to let the cookie crumble
tsesin 
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