hmm long time sinced i blogged. and the last time i was RATHER determined. nevermind how it turned out.

lots of things happened! some not exactly very pretty and everything. mom seems to be more and more often in her very bad mood. which is not good.


my mom demands that i pack my room.
i hate that...ok i WANT it to be neater perhaps....but i have a problem concentrating on the task. and coupled my indecisiveness, (whether to throw or not to throw, to place in a particular place or not to place) and this perfectionism thing i have. its horrible. you know i'll rather do a hundred maths questions.

and yes my room is THAT messy. u won't believe it till you see it.


reading a book my younger sis borrowed. shock.heart attack.and everything else. but its nice. surprisingly. Urchin of the Riding Stars.

its about this squirrel (don't roll your eyes)

its quite nice.suprisingly.i was kinda rolling my eyes when i 1st set sight on it too...

fantasy book....which are always nice:) im bored cos guess what? i finish the whole series of the last fantasy story... needa find more...and grace is the best person to find:)


ok before i bored everyone and myself to tears. shall stop here.

yea enjoy the reast of the holidays. while you can.

Going to malaysia today...Crap....missing lots of stuff.

->MISSING TODAY'S CHURCH SERVICE
->MISSING DANCE AT CHURCH TOMORROW
->MISSING PIANOha that one nevermind:)
->MISSING CC STUFF
->MISSING MR N MRS SMITH / HITCHIKER's GUIDE TO THE GALAXY .(still pending.)
->MISSING TALKING ON THE PHONE. esp with jo n:)then when i come back she goes.uh huh great huh.


see. crap. and none of it is better then sitting around waiting for big un-die-able mosquitos to bite you.

oh yea jolyn- when we come back we BETTER rush our geog already or we are so dead.


BYE people don't miss me! :)

*yea God know lots of stuff! everything actually...ha k random....may God guide our footsteps from here...:)

The second entry in a day...I'm going crazy...

Weird.so Sleepy all of a sudden.like, DEAD tired.yea..

Saw a beautiful Golden Retriver (<-spelling?) on the way back home...he / she was so beautiful....I'm gonna get a dog when i grow up :)


ok.Time to clean up my going-Nowhere life!!! Ftarting from Tomorrow.

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Wake up at 7.30!!
Do school homework and revise(??) school stuff in the morning: school hours.
Till noon.
Start on non-school stuff. Like THEORY & research? Tuition homework.
Evening's for practising piano :)
Night time's for being online and tv. (WITH the exception of AMBUSH MAKEOVER -which ROCKKS. 12-1 on Channel 5 weekdays)
And only 2hours per day online :)
SLEEP at 11. or 10.30. BEFORE that DO QUIET TIME-and maybe keep a diary or something.
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yea. Its not that difficult to follow.. going to do tuition homework later. Don't want to drag till tomorrow and not do again. so sad i don't even trust myself. Ok what rubbish.


yea good to type it out SOMEWHERE.yes and I WILL follow it. must NOT be lazing around ANYMORE.

I've been saying a lot of "yea"s lately. yea. *k not funny.
anyway.that's all.


(have a good mind to change template)

This is a beautiful afternoon and I'm doing...Maths! yayyyee.......I'm so happy and not wasting my life away. My life rocks because of Maths alone.

i shall quote a saying. "Maths rockk" -by Jamie Pang Ru Xue
Forget it.I'm going to be nutty if I type any more interesting stuff about Maths.

Wow typing in proper english is actually quite fun. My life rocks. yea. Believe it.

yea but seriously, Egyption Fractions is interesting...but it's kinda complicated I guess. But practical at their time...[want me to explain? X)


i realise my com(puter) at home sucks big time. BLogger at the school's com(puter) is COOL. AND the school com(puter) is lousy. so my HOME com(puter) is SUPER LOUSY. blogger looks 50% different in school compared to at my house. as in 50% better.

ohman I'm boring myself out.


um......yea yesterday was a GREAT day too. just like today. ha...was that sarcastic?
(oh gosh I'm even cracking lame jokes to myself)

anyway.
ok an interesting quote I saw on the newspaper-

'Men who cry are sensitive and in touch with their feelings, but the only feelings they tend to be in touch with are their own feelings.' -by Writer Nora Ephron


ha....I don't have any comments for that.....
yea. gonna stop before I fall asleep or something.

im so tired - troubled. and i don't even know the specific reason. generally where its coming from i know, but i JUST CAN'T PINPOINT WHAT.

feeling so dead now...maybe crying would help but see no point. no matter how troubled, tears never solved ANYTHING. NOTHING. i just see no point.


listening to christian songs. they are helping. nothing, NO ONE understands. only God ,and i can just picture, no, i KNOW He's just beside me, understanding. comforting...
*touched by His love. everlasting love.

its so much better when i think of that. sometimes it just feels like no one in the whole wide world would care -but God's probably the only one who will not shun u whatsoever, whensoever. if i become a freak tomorrow, He would still love me.


its comforting. still troubled, but comforted. like when someone covers a hot, irritating, itchy patch of skin with a wet towel.ha..stupid example, but its still strangely comforting.


*if you call to Him, He will answer you..


|zith

yesterday was unreasonably angry.shouldn't have.doesn't matter not angry anymore:)

(: learnt A LOT about music yesterday too.. got a jap song: veryvery nice...today jolyn send me a spanish song too! La Isle Bonita.... like so nice lah....


ha didn't know that a lot of songs can be so nice :)

just back from cca....from some reason was feeling so breathless during dance. maybe stamina lacking.crap.

our encore dance is SO nice! -extremely fun.. and our opening number's this fusion dance...special right/


going to church today, looking forward to it.

pray that God will help me through today..
shouldn't have slept so late yesterday :)
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satan makes you feel guilt -horrible sadness, and loneliness
but we weren't made for all that.. if we choose to go to God, if we want Him to come, He will. but you have to take the step out first...

if i hadn't go to God during the end of P6 -i would have been havoc.

spiteful words, revengful, rebellious -extremely vulgar..the world would become a meaningless, dark empty space filled with only temporary happiness -nothing is real..


God made me realise the beauty of the world, the everlasting love He has for us -a love so great we can't even begin to understand. that wherever we are, we are not alone...He will always be there for us, beside us, loving us.

for this, i thank God- He has light up my life, opened up a happier side of me. found out that it is easier to live day after day, forgiving, forgetting, finally letting go, moving on... He will forgive ur sins whatever it is.

true happiness-


satan just wants to make your life suffer, he just wants to bring you pain... follow God's calling- only in Him do you find true, not temporary, happiness..

get away from satan..this i beg of you...in the end, he will only destroy you. pray to God, He understands everything..talk to Him, he's the only one that understands..

and yes you do matter a lot to Him, and alot to those around you, those that care for you. and that is important.-more important then the majority of the poulation in the world.


sincerely,
shir-

i really hope you read this...

YOU don't know what you've done. what do you want.i want to GET OUT. i should have known. now its MY TURN.but you probably don't know.

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ok 4get it im being selfish here..
because someday everything will be right again. everything.

for,
"[In heaven] He will wipe away all tears from their eyes, and there shall be no more death, nor sorrow, nor crying, nor pain."

-Revelation 21:4

just came back from some ALUMNI meeting

so little people turned up.disappointing.like so what the..

shan't comment any further. >

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yesterday nite i watched inuyasha..its nice:) shall consider getting the cds. if they are not ex. animes rock. storylines are interesting- like so much better than some dumb cartoon on kids central or sth.

rubbish.-

not feeling in a very good mood SOMEHOW. wonder y.


tday had to do wad, 2 HRS of library service cos it was the 2nd time i returned my lib. bks late. stupid.
had to type this whole list (6pages long) of CHEMISTRY book titles,authors,serials no.s,bar no.s. -and ALOT of the freaking bks had lyk FIVE authors for ONE BOOK.


omg if i ever see the word CHEMISTRY again i'll vomit.
n ive probably MEMORIZED all the authors names. stupid they just cant stick with writing ONE BOOK. some wrote a WHOLE SERIES lah.

good thing we're done for CHEMISTRY last term.

utter rubbish.


zith-

just came back from some ALUMNI meeting

so little people turned up.disappointing.like so what the..

shan't comment any further. >

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yesterday nite i watched inuyasha..its nice:) shall consider getting the cds. if they are not ex. animes rock. storylines are interesting- like so much better than some dumb cartoon on kids central or sth.

rubbish.-

not feeling in a very good mood SOMEHOW. wonder y.


tday had to do wad, 2 HRS of library service cos it was the 2nd time i returned my lib. bks late. stupid.
had to type this whole list (6pages long) of CHEMISTRY book titles,authors,serials no.s,bar no.s. -and ALOT of the freaking bks had lyk FIVE authors for ONE BOOK.


omg if i ever see the word CHEMISTRY again i'll vomit.
n ive probably MEMORIZED all the authors names. stupid they just cant stick with writing ONE BOOK. some wrote a WHOLE SERIES lah.

good thing we're done for CHEMISTRY last term.

utter rubbish.


zith-

aha i js realised tt sum of the links are highlighted because i've visited the place before.

wonder why i didnt figure that out before..


ohh man im so i tired. jus came back from siloso beach- class outing
@sentosa.


feeling dizzy.

guess what? playing with sand and rubbing it on ur skin makes it smoother.! serious. but u'll have to play for a long time.


but the sand was clean and very fine. so it was ok i guess.


figured some things, raised a lot others.,
im sick of digging so deep

just want to be happy in life.
yea.


zith-