there! there!

Friday, September 30, 2005

i declare love for anything cheesy! (food please)

2days before exams.

im crazy. but nvm. to destress.

SO.if u dunno what to get me for a present a CHEESECAKE would be nice :)

^

THERE'S CHURCH TML! n mich's bday!-goodie WHAT TO GET HER????? (cheesecake?)

anyway(: (actu its not such a bad idea)

crazy nvm im talking to myself.

sigh school results for the term is sorta...sucky. actually. i srewed up real bad.

LA b4
history c5
geog a2
sci b3
maths a2
chinese a2
aep -?

im screwed...C5??!

nvm.

some ppl.
complain they are alone and all alone, the only one in the world and everything, but pls, who's not? -at a certain point in our lives?

they don't know real lonliness, yet they keep complaining on how their world's going to crash and sink and break and such.

lame.

they think their the only ones. sometimes they don't realise others are worst off then them.

and sometimes they don't realise it is their own actions that cause them the so called "lonliness". directly or indirectly.

they don't realise.

to them i advice to sit and think how you can IMPROVE the situation. stop complaining. while doing nothing about it.

houlaoshi is actu quite clever..quite..deep on the intellectual side..ha...he's gt the brains beneath that botak head people.

~
most of the time we don't see the swirling mess of interlinks and chain reactions that lies beneath the peaceful skin of..things.

most of the time we will never get to know;
of the things people sacrifice for us-

ha.
ironic.

# sigh. gta improv in lit.

spoke at : 6:29 PM

Sunday, September 25, 2005

from jan's blog -really spoke to me:

'Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He WILL make your paths straight.' Proverbs 3:5,6

' 'For I know the plan I have for you' declares the Lord, 'plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a furture. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.' ' Jeremiah 29:11,13

thank God for jan.haha.

God's love..is the most precious gift, a most generous present.
and comes His peace.
amidst these stressful times too..

'honour Him with the time He has given;'
keeping that stuck on to the front of my forehead.-like a postit note:)

i am going to study after this.after lunch.like seriously seriously.

and im (seriously..?ha..) considering doing my quiet time in the MORNING instead of in the middle of the night,

-when-
1. stars distract you
2. after shower scents sends you floating in the air (with the herbal green tea leaves..ahh..bliss..
3. sleepiness spins your world around like a pretty top till..

it starts to get a little blurry after awhile...

lol; saying your prayer out aloud helps a lot:)

Shokubutsu:) > it smells just like hot green herbal tea!
im addicted to it.. oh dear me; but it smells too nice
*smiles

#hum to the melody of life's simplicity

dadadeedudum~

spoke at : 1:03 PM

Saturday, September 24, 2005

im glad i went to church today..almost by God's will. or should i say, defiantely by God's will.

had..too many burdens ive been shouldering too long
and God is the only one who will ever really understand it all/

`still waiting for the answered prayer
but with renewed faith]

^

i can show you the world, shining simmering,splendid..

but only if you let me_____?
you..

sigh i guess i'll still have to be patient

how long do i have to wait?
if only you knew. if only.

shush
i cannot afford to drown in my desperation any longer
cannot let it kill me.
patience dear girl

must cont'd to pray for you. faithfully. patiently.

dear you..
if just only you knew how much there is to all this.]

impossible.wistful thinking

but God's peace. my pillar of strengh in times..
even in impossible times.

spoke at : 11:47 PM

Tuesday, September 20, 2005

church camp! for the Lord, not anyone else. go if ure willing to-for no other reason than that. if only you knew now much i want for you to go. for no other reason than that.

ale con'td to pray! im going to pray too!

%

im so tired
oh mindy i hate you for reassuring my fears. but then again.maybe its good to step out of this whole illusion.

in class listening to disney tracks through the speaker *tired smile

__ _____ so heavy its tiresome.
when is the gate of this jail cell finally going to open? sometimes i suspect i have the key, just that i dun want to.

hmm do you think im dumb? i realise..im not really angry i guess. wow.just..? lol

ive made so many mistakes these few weeks/ sorry jolyn;really..

too tired to play on this dumb game anymore, nowadays my dreams leave me so..restless. and sweating. sometimes it leaves me so knotted inside when i wake up in the morning.

ah gdness aladin's 'a whole new world' is beautiful.

i need a whole new point of view. a whole new world:)

from now onwards. im not going to care that my mom is not returning my hp. its good for me>now that i see i was making a big fuss over nothing yesterday.im not going to care now. no use.

no more calls. zero.
till after exams. if i still have the courage to face up.
whatever.

for now, im going to my mug world. don't come aknocking.
matters of...the heart? - are outside the door. whatever out of this world is non-existent.

just 3 weeks. only 3more weeks.
if i can get through these 3 weeks without breaking down. my challenge to myself.

`[a whole new world...with new horizons to pursue...*

i will not allow myself to falter

spoke at : 12:30 AM

Thursday, September 08, 2005

from ahmah's blogg-

You scored as Artsy Career. You are perfect for careers such as dancer, artist, writer, or actor. You love to be creative and express yourself. You are independent and a dreamer.

Artsy Career

100%

Adventure Career

72%

Slacker Career

64%

Journalist Career

52%

Family Career

48%

Helper's Career

44%

High-Class Career

40%

Sports Career

36%

Model Career

20%

Boring Career

12%

Your Future Profession
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YAY! -heh, artsy career.
supposed to hand in the yellow whether-you-want-to-go-ip-or-not form by fri.and i havent decided yet. oh SIGH.

do you suppose its ok to go poly to study design? because since i know that's what i want >no use going to jc rite//

ha i have no idea. EVERYONE' s going hcjc. almost everyone la.

what do i want?

my hse internet broke down T_T it takes forever to TRY to load but it never manages to reach that page. yay.

and i realised i missed the PE theory tst and attituse survey altogether. i am so, so dead.

grading's on sunday.i have EVERYTHING to improve on. and im going to malaysia today.woo~
coming back on friday. hopefully before 7//

im kinda verydead. yesterday...*smiles
i was lying on the floor and coming up with my own song.. creepy
and why was i doing that?

my life's a pretty mess that's why :)

forever.
someone...?

spoke at : 1:06 PM

Friday, September 02, 2005

The Broken Room

As she sits ever so quietly

in the corner of the broken room...

she smiles.

When she catches a glimpse of the moonlight

forming a warm glow around his sleeping face...

she cries.

As she reaches out her hand

unable to resist the urge to run her fingers through the dark curls...

she smiles.

When the simple touch of her hand

causes him to flinch and pull away...

she cries.

As she quietly moves herself

back to the corner of the broken room,

she sits ever so quietly...

watching him...

loving him...

and reminding herself that tomorrow is another day.

Then she smiles.

such a beautiful poem huh..i got it from some...Reactive Attachment Disorder website/

but it gives you a feeling that it's a mother's love the 1st time you read....although you look throu it you don't really find any solid evidence that it isn't the normal bgr stuff;

guess its the difference between a mother's love and the normal...puppy love. because one is true..and boundless- at least i KNOW so, but sometimes you just can't imagine.

right nvm my thoughts are so not organized and everything..

its so surprising im blogging about such..light hearted stuff/

just this afternoon i think i feel into this really horrid mood there was this long long entry i typed in the classrm com but it hanged. what the la. anyway.

maybe God didn't want me to blog about that kinda stuff. as in, that kinda content.

ha.such a nice poem....

don't say im crazy but today's Unseen Poetry's poem was so nice...although at 1st it seemed hard and the questions so....unanswerable but-

after reading and thinking about it, it became so..perfect6 ] my vocab is extremely limimted man. but the poem was so flow-y. and the point was weaven into the lines of the strokes so ..perfectly. ha.

im getting crazy.

im actually finding beauty in POEMS. ohman what's happening to me.

ok that was a damn CRA-PPY entry i know..> but nvm there's dance tml im happy..and church! too...can't be more contented;

but if only i could say gdnight, my night would be perfect.

spoke at : 11:19 PM