I've been having a problem letting go of something I probably should, of late.
So today, God showed me.
He showed me my emotional immaturity, in the form of lack of resilience, oversensitivity, probably unreinability (if there's such a word) and perhaps the most jarring of all, vunerability.
Cliche, yes, but true nonetheless.
Its not a crime to suffer from one nor all of the above, but if even the slightest shock would trigger off a set of adverse symptoms-(namely an uncontrollable replay of a certain time frame from a certain minute to a certain second; warped, unhealthy mindsets; high-walled defensiveness)-then I would suggest to myself, that for the better good of this young lady she should stop and sidestep to the right and lighted path.
Of course this sidestep would be more aptly described as a quantum leap (if self-attempted) - fairly impossible and almost doomed to the ranks of failures. It is here that I need the unwavering focus on God, the need for his strength, comfort, and wisdom. And love.
Goodness (random: I've found myself starting sentences with this word too many a time of late) this seems overwhelming. And past experiences are pointing to a cursed continued failure of THIS ONE. But God is not a God of the past. so. I'm putting my trust in him!
Ah so there would be my analytical, not so impulsive part of my brain speaking. But if I could just sum it all in one hot-blooded sentence, it would go along the lines of:
today, you made me want to give you up
tsesin 
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