Two enlightenments in two days. Must be God.

YESTERDAY

At the Synergy Arts Exhibition where the Gold and Gold with Honour awardees' works were presented, I had the good fortune to be able to tag along the GOH to listen to the artists talk about their works as the VIP party moved around.

One especially spoke to me, when we talked to him later. Ruben, currently at Laselle. I think what touched me when he presented about his work was the sincerity of his works' intention. Not to impress, like many of the huge paintings and pieces that won top prizes; but to express what is truly inside and not being afraid of what comes out in the end. To not be bound by expectations of what the work is "supposed" to be, and just be liberated in the expression.

There was something I saw in his works after he presented, like he left a piece of himself in them, however small they seemed in comparison to the overwhelmingly big paintings. Its...different, from the mere physical reflection of yourself in the painting - that may not necessarily mean a part of what is intrinsic is reflected.

It spoke to me, shone a guiding star to the possibility of light while I was, since this year, so darkly disillusioned about art.

Of course, there were technical marvels as well, many boundaries broken, many concepts, painting skills and compositions admired.

Yes. Invaluable.



TODAY

Its always quite... enlightening to talk to someone standing on a different platform from you. He always stands from another perspective, sometimes sees things clearer than you ever possibly can.

I am thankful today that such a perspective from a friend was revealed to me. God showed me the root of the problem, why I had that little uncomfortable feeling inside since the beginning and it is really. quite. horrifying. to know the truth. To see that what seemed pure and alright was actually a little twisted, a little tainted, right at the start.

And now, I know I'll have to start from a clean slate from all over again, and the ending might just not be what I had always expected and wanted it to be.


Still, I thank God for the revelation. And surrender this into His hands.