I'm sorry, I'm sorry that I'm here knowing -and fearing- what would happen next and I don't take any action to prevent it.
I'm sorry that knowing nothing can come out of it but I do nothing.
I don't know what to do, except to say I'm really sorry.
I really, really am.
Why do things have to turn out this way?
THIS IS A BLOODY TUG AND WAR.
(and someone always break their arm in tug and war)*
No, I've to remind myself not another one. History will NOT repeat itself!
I will not give it a chance to.Okay I feel a little better stating it out.
Anyways!
Its a little demoralizing that I don't think I got through the AEP selection test at Nj, but I'll work even harder to build up my portfolio this one month plus before I go on to the next school. GoGoGo!
ORIENTATION STARTS TOMORROW LASTING TILL FRIDAY.
So the stupidly boring admin week was worth it yes. (Even if it wasn't we somehow have to convince ourselves it was or risk feeling miserable) New civic classes/ogs next week and I'm going to be in some alien class.
A class with odd combi people in the arts stream. I hope everyone is nutty and arty kinda nice (: like sunshine in a school of grey (:
PLEASE TOO, do not make people I talk seriously to nervous. Or if they are please let them not show it at least haha.
I WILL MISS ALL MY (BORING, SCIENCE/NORMAL COMBI CHOOSING) NY CLASSMATES. Must visit me ok! I'm betting you all will be in same class la -_-
TENNIS, DANCE, READ NEAR OVERDUE BOOKS, GET NEW CAMERA BATT, DO ART (before which is BORROW USEFUL BOOKS NOT JUNK). And really start doing quiet time consistently. ReallyREALLY.
If I don't have time for Him now, I won't have time for the rest of the year and for the rest of my life.
So. I'm leaving everything else in Your hands!
tsesin 
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