suz says she saw my face and that I'm going to backslide somewhere early this year. is it coming truuuuue? right now actually I'm just too tired to care.
things will just happen as they will.
i'm like quite depressed nowadays like something's weighing on me and the smiles are beginning to feel a little tiring/fake. or delusional. like I manage to be high because I'm pretending all the other shit doesn't exist.
and who likes emo people??
so I really can't be emo
this is such a stupid rant entry I haven't done this for so long it almost feels... well actually it feels normal.
lets see. people are gone, I'm afraid, can't get past myself, regreting shitloads about all the yesterdays that affect the Present. o and I think it sprained my right arm just by playing tennis+mass dancing+jerking from that tall and stupidly violent dance partner. it hurts a bit like hell now, although I find it weird how we always say it hurts like hell but none of us actually know hell.
is all this this my punishment?
I met shakespeare yesterday, he was standing there, all alive and perfect. I thought he was a ghost, but he speaks! with human-ness and that vunerability that makes human-ness. then it struck! I yearn to go back in time. To dig up the past, and return to the peaceful days of poems, sonnets, and tragic love. shakespeare, shakespeare. oh I fell in love with shakespeare yesterday.I do not find solaces any longer in the places where I once found them
tsesin 
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