somehow i just knew, i just knew something like that would happen if i spoke too much.
and i don't know why im so afraid of letting people know how i feel, especially those i treasure the most. its just this paralysing fear.
that something will happen to me? that they will reject me? that they will think its stupid?
i don't know. i don't know why, and because i don't know why i can't get rid of it.
sheesh
i don't know why i try so hard supressing so they don't realise something of me that's out of their expectations. its's stiffling, but i don't know why i still do it.
"please don't read through my passiveness, please don't ask."
i don't know why im doing what im doing.
my stupid subconscious brain. im convinced it must be hardwired into me from some dumb "horrific" past experience.
URGH.
i don't know i don't know i don't know.
by the way, i Hate stray smses.
it was meant for you again, mindy. Again.
HAIYA
@#$%#%^^&%
tsesin 
spoke at : 10:42 AM