if only
i could get used to this sucking of life - as part of my life
ok im going to be strong, with God. and i know He's somewhere. or, everywhere. i need to start praying again for strength.
if what they say is true, that what doesn't kill you makes you stronger, then im bloody making sure this isn't going to kill me.
pride is what irks me the most.
and, try as i may, pride is what i cannot even Start to empathise with. simply because there is nothing behind pride to try to understand. pride is just, well, disgusting pride.
how God can forgive even that, is well, just amazing.
tiresome. this is tiresome.
"The mighty man will become tinder
and his work a spark;
both will burn together,
with no one to quench the fire."
Isaiah 1:31
its scary how true this is in my life.
sometimes i wonder
tsesin 
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