i think ive supressed myself for far too long.
introverted? shit man i never used to be that. unless, of course i don't feel like talking to you.
what's the point? where's the use? what the hell am i trying to do trying to be someone else so people could accept me. whatevers to that.
that's not me. no use supressing what's me. im not a little happy chirpy little girl. im bad tempered, rash, egocentric, i hate limits. i hate who i hate, i love who i love.
love me if you can accept it. or hate me
i don't suddenly have a split personality bug, im just tired of trying so hard to be someone else, or just nobody so people won't start hating me. maybe i hated the way i was but the truth is im still all that, and will always be unless i face up to it. instead of pushing it under the mat.
no use fading to run away. no use feeling all shit insecure cos you're never yourself. no use trying to be meek. omg, meek. what the.
this stupid act ive embarked on (3 years ago? 4? i can't even bloody remember) to fool everyone, everything, and myself is just. sapping away me. what the hell am i doing.
im not what im not, i am what i am.
wake up, shirley.
if you want to change then start by opening up.
tsesin 
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