hello. this is me feeling quite shit again because i can't go for njd, oh joy.

and i've analysized, while flung on the sofa watching absolutely meaningless tv programmes, it is probably because i have too much time (esp. on fridays) that i feel extra fat/rotten/blubber-ish about not going to njd, as compared to not being able to go for thurs/wed njd.

yes, i actually bothered to analyse. it took, er, maybe 2mins? then back to restless torture on tv.

i've also analysed, it is perhaps of this shit feeling i can't dispose of that i became a bit emo about my close friend (refer to previous entry). she didn't do anything wrong, but i still feel hurt anyway. its life i suppose, things happen that are beyond your control.

yes i bothered to analyse that too. all hail my analytical mind.


i need tuition for my math/sciences. i need to study more. i need to hug and smile at jolyn more because she's been so nice. i need to mug more for Amath/chem/physics. mug more, it kills you less, you feel cleverer. its a simple formula and a win-win-win situation, problem is i just don't do it.

there're lessons for another week, after that it'll be prelim-mug/coursework rush for the rest of june, and hopefully ninjado pia-ing. God please heal my ankle, nothing else is working. :'(
..grant me the faith to believe.


i need to study more study more study more study more. be a nerd, a geek, whatever. I JUST NEED TO STUDY MORE. and i should just put this thing/blog to hiatus or just shut it down for good, but i have not yet achieved that level of maturity to do so.


friday's ninjado would be ending in approx. 36mins now.


the screen is too bright, the lamp is too bright, my headache is deluding me.
i should sleep early tonight. i really should.

but as before, i have not yet achieved that level of maturity to do so. or anything else i should, for that matter. kudos to me.

and have i mentioned the blog-times are screwed.