As i crunch over from a mysterious stomachache and type this, i ponder the extend of how much we really take for granted the peace in our land. where we live without strife, fear, pain, where all races live peacefully and simultaneously alongside each other.

where we might be a small country, but our land has been blessed with strong leaders. it is a place where we as her occupants have not seen the shortage of food, nor been denied the justice of equal opportunity as we go about our daily lives.

we have schools to attend, to nurture our minds. yes, we should be thankful we have homework to do, that we have teachers. that we have our parents, that we have families, friends, and the freedom of choices. yes, even the time to complain.

yes i have been guilty of that many a time, especially when stress seems to build up like no other. but despite all these compliants, surely we should know..

that we have been blessed, truly. like no other.


which country has no natural resource at all and still manages to be the most prosperous in the region? which country as small as ours can survive peacefully with its neighbours for so long, without being taken over?

...



i have no idea why i just spurt all that out. maybe its the stomachache.


before i go, though, i must give credit to God, for he has answered prayers despite my sore lack of faith.
the fact that i've survived through today (or more than survived, actually) i know He's been planning everything nicely for me. so many surprises..

and what i thought impossible during the weekend, He revealed to me today :)


i must learn from Him faith :))

and jiayou jiayou evelyn!! remember nothing's impossible with God! and even though its really stressful but its really cool to go this tough patch with you.

hold on ya, cause God's not gonna let go of you. :)

Quando Quando Quando



Tell me when will you be mine
Tell me quando quando quando
We can share a love divine
Please don't make me wait again

When will you say yes to me
Tell me quando quando quando
You mean happiness to me
Oh my love please tell me when

Every moment's a day
Every day seems a lifetime
Let me show you the way
To a joy beyond compare

I can't wait a moment more
Tell me quando quando quando
Just say it's me that you adore
And then darling tell me when

Every moment's a day
Every day seems a lifetime
Let me show you the way
To a joy beyond compare

I can't wait a moment more
Tell me quando quando quando
Say it's me that you adore
And then darling tell me when

Oh my darling tell me when
And then darling tell me when
Oh my darling tell me when



i think i used to try real hard to like rock songs, but really, they're not my type :) not even the semi rock ones, like Avril. of course now she totally turned herself into a blondie, but nevermind.

on second thoughts, there you have it, attitude doesnt last.


haha. i am biased.

another song! a little too many high pitchy parts, but nice nevertheless :)

I Need You by Leann Rimes



I dont need a lot of things
I can get by with nothing
Of all the blessings life can bring
Ive always needed something
But Ive got all I want
When it comes to loving you
Youre my only reason
Youre my only truth

I need you like water
Like breath, like rain
I need you like mercy
From heavens gate
Theres a freedom in your arms
That carries me through
I need you

Youre the hope that moves me
To courage again
Youre the love that rescues me
When the cold winds, rage
And its so amazing
cause thats just how you are
And I cant turn back now
cause youve brought me too far

I need you like water
Like breath, like rain
I need you like mercy
From heavens gate
Theres a freedom in your arms
That carries me through
I need you
Oh yes I do

I need you like water
Like breath, like rain
I need you like mercy
From heavens gate
Theres a freedom in your arms
That carries me through
I need you
Oh yes I do
I need you
I need you



yeah, i need you Lord :)

9:44PM 22March

HAHA BUT ITS CUTE!!
(although a bit not me)

aww man people just give me a break, its only a template.. i got so sick of dark black backgrounds.

and so this is like, PERFECTO :)





camp was great! (i mean dance camp, but the sec 4 camp too, anyway)
not in the fun way actually...it wasn't like a great rocket blast of fun, but the piece really improved a lot! in terms of the emotions and the whole feel of the piece, and the togetherness of us all :)


love <3

it was tiring, but great :)
the next few weeks will be packed, with syf, njd practises, midyears.. BUT WITH GOD I'LL COPE. or, more than cope :)

ive not really been depending on God nowadays, and have been compromising on quiet time. but as with jon lee's case as aletheia, julia and i were dumbfounded to find out yesterday - God honours the time you spend with Him, and He will take care of everything if you just depend on Him.

because,
JONATHAN HAS FINISHED ALL HIS HOMEWORK. (*faints*) and this is despite all other commitments of his. is he burned out? (doesn't seem like it) and he stops work at 10 to do qt for an hour plus. sometimes wakes up at 6 to continue doing hw.

julia, too, shared on praying and dependence on God during these stressful times.

and so yesterday's main message of the sharing was to pray and really depend on God for strength, to ask and He will provide. this really goes with what's been happening in my past week too.

these past few days God has been constantly raising up past issues that ive buried inside for quite a while now. issues that i struggle with, that i run away from whenever i can.

all these brought up in the span of the past week, stretching over to the coming one which promises all the stress of things-to-be-done and not-done. (which amounts to A lot) the week actually seems pretty bleak.


but i believe God is calling for a dependence on Him, utterly, and finally -after trying to struggle by myself for so long.


hmm. this is going to be a hard week. but as our heavenly daddy says, My grace is sufficient for you.

so Father, help me to have the faith and dependence in you. cause i know i can't make it on my own.

ive spent 3 full days,

AND NOW MY ROOM IS THE LOVE <3 its so neat ok. x)
im so going to make sure it Stays that way

and seriously its just such a miracle i can finish packing my room!
i know it sounds stupid, but its,um, emotionally exhausting? to decide whether or not to throw stuff away.
lol, i get attached to all the wrong stuff. haiya.

HAHA, BUT WHATEVER IM DONE WITH IT.
devon manages to convince me there's no use in keeping sec 1 and 2 stuff even though you feel a bit (understatement) sad that they have to go



but now im happy happy happy (:



realised also that a reason why i love sports sometimes is the realness of it all, in contrast to the fancifulness of art.... that although art reflects life sometimes so much of it is make believe.

my vocabulary isn't large enough to fully explain how it feels.. but you know what i mean?
lol

ive been blessed to know that its all about attitude, really. so whatever, however hard it takes, i'll perservere and push on in hope and God's strength. to give my best in everything (:



should i say it again?
I LOVE MY ROOM xD


thank the Lord for giving me that extra ompf to actually finish packing it, despite all my doubts in the process.. :)

dance camp on thurs!
i want to be so throughly throughly tired out!

14Mar, 1.05AM

:)

i can't describe it, but i'll never forget it for the rest of my life
<3 414


Saying i love you

Is not the words i want to hear from you

Its not that i don't want to

Hard to say but if you only knew

How easy, it would be to show me how you feel

More than words,

Is all you have to do to make it real

Then you wouldn't have to say

That you love me

Cause i already know..



it was so overwhelming..
hahaha and all of you know how much i am a sucker for this song!

its more than what words can say, but it was the best birthday i ever had - it meant so much to me


thank you :)
for nuts, i'll never ever ever forget it

<3



thank God..

tomorrow is the deadline for our AEP Visual Arts Task.
and, as per normal, every AEP student (well almost) is rushing it like nuts.

ok, i am supposed to, too - i promised i'll start typing the 1500 proposal at 10:45 pm (its 10:48 now, but i reckon i few more minutes wouldn't kill. xP)

if you think i started late, devon wanted to start at 10, but we were just talking and she was like, "oh i haven't started - im still laughing away with jamie -inserts smiley face- "

and as if to justify her cause, "its damn funny la! -more smiley faces- "

LOL, if that isn't bad enough..

conversation with evelyn:
me:
*tells evelyn about devon 10 o'clock plan, about my 10:45*
evelyn:
haha. okay...well. i reckon i'll start much later >< me:
HAHA
and what are you doing?
evelyn:
nothing. trying to recover my good mood or i won't get started on anything

HAHAHA. evelyn's the BEST i tell you. she has the total capability to say that in full seriousness. lol


and this is yiting's take on the VAT RUSH! while having a nice time talking to me simultaneously:

"HA! i feel myself floating in the air mannnn..."

and now, we're like

yiting:
"im PREPARED TO STAY UP U NTIL 5 AGAIN!"
"oh yayae, i am x)"

me:
"no la, i'll sleep at 3 i don't care"

yiting:
"okay"
"i hope i can sleep earlier than you :)"
"wuaha"

and, (later)
"babablackSHEET!"
"oops i mean SHIT"

"er, save the sheep?"


and we're supposed to be so stressed? lol


-11:08 pm
(blog time = screwless, contrary to popular belief that it is actually screwed - in place.)

am i making sense? don't feel like im making sense.
oh no x)

because you were born a day late

because bus journeys are dangerous, i recognised a pair of eyes that were so vaguely familiar

because i thought i knew better then

because many things in life come overdued


is God trying to tell me something?
Father take away this deafness of my heart


"He is no fool to give up what he cannot keep to gain what he cannot lose." -Jim Elliot