back from a trip back to malaysia for the chinese new year, and i find myself thrown into and stuck onto a horribly tangled sticky web of things not-done and to-do.
a whole mount everest tall of them, and a humongously disgustingly big web of them.
and on a sidenote, everyone seems to have gotten the lovebite over the chinese new year. everyone's being very lovey-doveyish on their msn nicknames or blog posts.
well ok maybe not everyone's very lovey dovey, but still, love is touched on and pondered. and its scary reading blogs and reading how much their world is really twisted to the other One, and you try not to think how their world will crash one day should anything go wrong.
its like a horrible emotional rollercoaster, esp. at our age when we're all not mature enough to sustain anything.
hmm. that's a very long sidenote.
ok i don't really regret going malaysia.
had fun and all, did some homework there, and most importantly met my grandmother who took care of me when i was young.
as my mother always hinted every year of recent years, we'll never know if it'll be the last time we'll be able to see her.
so i don't regret it i don't regret it i don't regret it.
yeah.
actually im just damn scared right now, i don't know how / where to start. Lord help me see that you are so much bigger than all of these, help me see light of this song lyric
when all things that surround, become shadows in the light of yougrant me your peace, your wisdom and your hope father
tsesin 
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