connection's been down these last few days, which i highly doubt has anything to do with the earthquake than someone from my family convieniently fiddling with the internet connection settings..

anyways. im glad, though. after all the feelings of being "cut away from society", i finally got over it and realised how much of my life i actually waste coming online. -_-


the year's coming to an end..and this year has been somewhat of a tough year.

ive regretted quite a bit. my complacency and inconsistency in quiet time that just totally stunted my spiritual growth and all the times i could have utilized to build my relationship with my dad. the times i tried so hard to be someone else, the times i feared getting hurt so much i just keep myself shut and walled up, and the time i compromised on my moral stand in the peak of my insecurity.

and of course there's the procrastination over the year, this biggie problem of mine that'll need a miracle to cure, seriously.

i suppose these habits and lies don't just disappear overnight, but it makes them so much harder that ive been running away from God for so long.
so i pray that for the new year i'll have an intimate relationship with God- that he'll take care of my growth, and that i'll be with him every step of the way, so that as he moulds me he'll use me to fulfill his destiny for me.

and although there are so many issues that seem so big to me, its ok cos i know he's there with us at every crossroad of life always in control of everything..that his strength is made perfect in weakness.
and knowing that, i can sleep more peacefully at night.

im thankful for his providence of jolyn, a dear sister in christ, so that we can encourage and keep each other in check next year, plus so many other really really close friends :) esp mindy!

through the days of no internet access i also realised that the people who mean the most to me are all around me at almost anything i need them, and that i didn't have to go online to fill this empty void. so im really thankful too.. it was the best christmas gift i could ever get :)


so although there were so many mistakes and "noooo..."s in 2006 im thankful that God's always there to help me up, and knowing that -i won't have anything to fear in the coming year, because "fear, is not of God".


<3,
and have a blessed new year:)