FORGET about that blog after exam thing okay. yea man, forget it. its not working anyway.
one paper down. think i screwed up my essays. but its over. man life's gotta move on. so it is.
12 more days.
i should do a countdown to the end of exams. like evelyn, just that she was doing countdown TO exams, 'cept that it's happening NOW.
its nuts, this exam thing.
actually its not all that bad, but i realise that im freaking out just thinking what would happen if i got horrific results.
im just scared i'll be so demoralised again? and i so cannot control things when it happens. i mean i don't get raving mad and all, but i just sink into this apathetic outlook on everything in this world, like its gonna end tomorrow and do you think i care kinda attitude.
its stupid, and it just shows how unresilient i am. but i can't control it, and it Sucks yeah. i'll just feel like this walking dead. and the best thing i can get to surprise at that stage is just a slight raise of the eyebrow.
SO. i don't want to get demoralised and be that wooden slab dragging myself wherever i feel like going (which is nowhere, actually), and leaving woodchips everywhere.
this is really bad. something's happening to me.
and i don't want to go back to how i was in the past again.
tsesin 
spoke at : 6:22 PM