Squirrels over a fireplace
twirling
tumbling
crying

a slash across the other.
faces agast,
in the light

blood ticking with the
theatric time
wait for curtains to
float a fall

while eyes
stare
only at the moving streaks
across the stage-

they
forget the shadows on the ground

that fly along,
together

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hahaha. i shall not speak of my attempt at controlling my going online hours. its not totally bad..improved a little at least.

there's so much overdued and going-to-be-dued homework! i think im going to get heartburn or something...from stress? i just realised i don't REALLY know where i want to go after olevels. that is quite bad.


ha ok. i shall just concentrate on eoys now first. there's barely a month left... and i am so not going to do badly like last year again.

nut-es. i don't even know why im typing all this im typing now.


there's no meaning in this world. and im so sick of chasing after everything that seems to promise happiness, or seems nice to have/attain/achieve. only to realise that you're not really happy even with it after that?

evelyn and i are sorely lacking in motivation in school nowadays. ive been feeling like this since term 2,which is not good. and i don't know whats wrong.


other then the usual fewmanymanymany subjects we're all obliged to learn to mastery, i don't know why im actually Going to school at all.

or, fine. that's the purpose of school huh. -LEARNING- well thanks a lot.


ohgreat im turning angsty again. OHOH, and i realised something - i sleep with a frown.... its weird but i have no idea why it comes naturally whenever i close my eyes. and comes back whenever im not consious about it.

that's not good isnt it? ahwell.


i think...i need a farm. with chickens and horses and all.