friction friction friction.

friction in the house. will produce heat, cause wear and (ultimately) tear.


dependence does not equal love. does not equal. does not equal!! someone has to get that in their head/soul/mantality. i don't want to judge..but that is what ive observed. thing is, sadly perhaps.. you'll not listen to me.

ohwell.


one must not be too oversensitive. being highly defensive only reveals something about oneself. (HAHA i should stop the use of ONESELF in case i sound like some...old jap yoga teacher from the high-misty-mountains or something)

was going around reading blogs... and ouch, haha. i can just imagine the pain. but i'll not start sighing again instead start to hope, because there IS hope! yeah. haha :D


this week was pretty meaningful, learnt how that going for missions is not about just suddenly DOING STUFF on that day like some miracle, but by already starting to "prepare" in our daily walk. so yeah! small goals this week. to:

-not exaggerate about myself. not to lie about myself to gain acceptance. because i don't have to! we are fearfully and wonderfully made.

-not spend so much time on the internet. (which reminds me, i should be going in 5 mins)

-swallow unhappiness WILLINGLY and learn to let go. WITHOUT WANT FOR REVENGE (haha)

-and most important of all! perservere in quiet time!!!!!


everything's so hard...and i struggle things so numerously large and difficult. but i thank God for the opportunity for me to pray and want change!


on saturday service during the partake of the bread and wine, a line struck me deep..
for some reason...it was always so often heard it seemed so..normal, something routine? but at that moment out of God's grace i caught a glimpse - of the truly overwhelming meaning behind the line,

"...This is my body, broken for you..."
and i couldnt stop crying at that snap of the biscuit broken beneath my fingers


its just, so amazing..