the big problem with me now is my time management. and it totally sucks, so it totally screws up my life.


FIRSTLY and most horrifyingly terrible is the time spent online. doing nothing really, just talking blogging reading doing nothing around and murking near the edge of a dark mud pool i'll be stuck and drowning in later/

i spend way over 10 hours per week online. DOING NOTHING WORTH THE TIME. and that is just; indescribaly terrible prioritising.

so to solve the problem. all work to be done on the computer (eg. typing stuff) will be done in school. where virtually every thing that can suck the time out of your life is banned. like MSN, friendster, and whatever whatever. MSN ESPECIALLY

and every week im limiting myself to just 3 hours of going online. 3 HOURS PER WEEK ONLY. and that works to only 1 hour and half hour slots every visit. im recording and sticking the times to the back of my computer, damnit.



right. okay.
there is no secondly or thirdly. that's just about the most humongous time pest infesting my timetable right now.

AND the most tempting AND the most difficult to resist. since i always follow my HEART rather then my MIND. and that sounds romantic for a character portfolio by the way, but is really bloodily inconvinient.


sounds really easy, and beautifully planned out too!(like many of those exercise routine plans) but it's just difficult. ive tried before (and failed,obviously); its like trying to breathe in water.
or breaking free - from some heroin addiction, or some drug that's got people escaping from hospitals recently.. what is it called again? some...subflex or something.

yeah. so im struggling with it. and i know later this week i'll probably have to inveigh against my conscience..


but yeah. im determined not to rely on my own strength again this time round..