kays, i'll talk in riddles, so humour me. cause there's some stuff i feel like saying, but not really, so. riddles it shall be then. or seemingly meaningless stuff.

its funny.

i pick up two assignments. one gurantees, or promises, a pretty future; another a rough path for later days. one that would weary my heart. im quite sure. (then again what I think is not always right)

one comes as a maths assignment, calculative of future - some betrayal of your feelings. another as an arts assignment, something you carve from the heart, but one that does not feed your stomach. nor does you any good.

which do you choose?


although it sounds awfully like some career choice dilema, (due to the partial uncreativity on my part -_-) , its not.


today at class i was DISTRACTED. goodness. for nuts i have never tried so hard to listen but just couldnt get anything logical into my head before. 1st lesson was HISTORY somemore. and im like...what....when she was explaining all the league of nations council stuff. AH. good thing there was chinese compo, sorted my thoughts and cleared my head a bit (thank God)

WAIT, WHICH REMINDS ME. i havent handed up my compo yet! ><
i actually FINISHED it ok! (hahaha for once.) -oh by the way i really want to improve my chinese & not just sit there and whine about it. and i start by not whining.-

that shows it i guess. i went through today in a very dazed manner. maths was ok though. chem was interesting because i havent been listening for the whole topic and couldnt catch it.


sigh. help/
my mind is split into two. one cold and calculative, another more...compassionate? and some desire to do SOMETHING at least. i don't know. im confused.

this sounds like quite a screwed up piece of thought coherency. which really reflects my brain thought yea!



sigh
forget it. i should just let it go and ask Him.

"Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid." John 14:27

yea k