i feel so tired. again. in the middle of the holidays. haha. i can just die here laughing bitterly.

dance in the morning, and now i feel so drained out. i need sleep desperately. so so so desperately.

but i cant; or i'll be late for my maths lesson.


darnit.
i don't get it. nowadays when i fall asleep at night i wake up in the morning feeling like ive never slept at all. my mind feels so tired, i can barely catch my spirit as it stumbles in sleepiness.

ha, fancy words aside...its true. and when i close my eyes and try to sleep again it feels like a wave washing my mind in consciousness and thoughts again. darnit i don't get it it feels like ive been thinking and thinking and thinking about everything the whole night- not really sleeping, not really resting.


i cant help it..and it leaves me waking in the morning feeling very disturbed. i don't feel like the morning's a new day, it feels like it the continuation of all my thoughts during the night, only more real.

dreams flash over and over throughout the night, i know ive dreamt of close to everything there is going on wrongly in my life. or everything there is to worry. i don't it. its freakingly affecting me.


at first i thought it was my handphone, about some big radiation thing that supposingly affects your mind, or even to the fact i cant really sleep because im unconsciously being..conscious about my phone vibrations? but even when i off my handphone before i sleep, nothing changes.


i cant get sleep. and its draining me out. how? ha...sleeping pills?


it rains outside. the room's dark, caught in the middle of day and night time. the light from the screen burns into my eyes and the glare leaves a second dimension when i glance elsewhere.
im tired.

maybe because its june. how much does it hold.

why are some parts of the year harder to get by