today was quite a terrible day for me. maybe it was from yesterday/

came to school in quite a horrible mood, and the fact that my bag was super heavy cos i couldnt hold on to anymore stuff with my already full hands didnt help. and so i painstakingly trudged to school that way.


for literature we watched this really funny and kinda romantic show...(: so it was a little better i suppose. lol it was just freakingly lame la..hahaha, and we stayed over the class time to finish watching the show, eating over to the next lesson. but what the heck, the show was nice:) The Princess Bride. this quite cliche but heartwarmingly funny fairytale(:

recess was chicken porridge (which is VERY nice btw) with mindy and we talked and talked about stuff. realised i get pissed at people quite easily nowadays. my
temper's flaring.. and trust me, im really horrible when i make up my mind to be really pissed at someone. ha, go ask yiting and zijing. anyway, so fingers crossed i'll try not to get pissed myself and have more patience and tolerance.


oh. after recess things went downhill all the way...and when lunch came i was just. being withdrawn again. locked myself in the library and sketched stuff. i think evelyn and valerie were trying to be nice and talk to me but i was just clamming up. so in the end they left me alone :D

which is good, or any stuff that comes out of my mouth'll be harsh anyway.


physics..mdm toh was a little funny. but dry nevertheless. and cca after sch cos there wasnt aep. il rather it this way always. anyway.

ARGH the LAST day of curriculum in school before holidays and im just STRESSED ok. im just so freakingly stressed its killing me. there's just so many things to do its like never ending. and so many things before the holidays, during the holidays, after the holidays, i wonder if it'll even be a holiday anymore.


yesterday was idiotic. felt so tired after njd, not the refreshing kind of exhaustion, but more of a nearing breakdown point kind of physical drain. plus the stress...and then you start to get emotional...haha. maybe jason's right. i AM angsty.

typed smses that were never meant to be sent, deciding after whther i should send it afterall, thinking about so much stuff that's been suppressed for so long, deciding if the stupid art thing was worth my sleep, flopping into bed in the end w/o doing anything - still deciding whether to send the smses, fell asleep deciding and woke up feeling like ive never slept.



AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHh. i need scream therapy. or someone's shoulder to cry on. or URGH I DON'T KNOW. ALL THE STUFF TO DISAPPEAR. SO THE STRESS'L DISAPPEAR TOO.

freak. stress makes you emotional.

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