people've changed

people i once knew like the back of my hand, like that timetable in my file, like the...i don't know. but gosh. they've changed.

people that i used to care so much for, and had such a deep bond with, so long ago... and in some sense now you see that they've moved on without you, just like you without them, and because of that emotional bond that still lingers inside from so long before -you find your heart beating at the screen, and a subtle "you didnt wait for me..." breezes through your mind


i'd went to joy's blog...my primary school best friend. and...she was probably the only person i'd really opened up to during pri sch. we were always so close- we knew everything about each other, we spent all our free time together, our lives revolved around one another...

now i just don't know her anymore.., i read her entries and i don't recognise her....ha, the feeling's horrible. someone you treasure and love a lot, and you don't know that person anymore. and there's very little chance of the 2 of your worlds ever coming together..


and the heart wrenching part is that ive never told her how much i treasured her. haha...darn it. and now..now its like, the joy i knew's locked away in the past. AH.

u get this...unreachable feeling. like you knew a person a lot, yet you're never going to really reach out to that person. haha. freak la. just freak la. the feeling's horrible. -not being able to reach out to someone that you love.


maybe the feeling's the same when...a loved one dies.


T-T
the next time i meet people that i treasure a lot... i will hug them and tell them how much they mean to me. and that should we ever drift further than beyond our reach in the future...they still meant a lot a lot to me.
and that i'll never forget them. no matter what.


just like i havent forgotten joy