im biting my lip and staring at the screen.
freak.

i don't know how to react, WHAT to react. when bad things come they pour in buckets. ha...im breaking down from all the stress. just when i have a headache. just when my eyes hurt from staring at the darn shining screen too long. just when im having major computer problems with work that's due tml morning, 8.00 sharp. just when ive to reach Raffles MRT by 8 in the morning tml.

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argh, okay.
CORRECTION. i feel like breaking down any moment now. but i won't allow that to happen. breaking down is an option. and i am so not going to choose it.

X

there's a solution to everything. yes. *breathe*

a lot's been happening the past few days. i don't know what to believe anymore. neither do i want to think anymore about it. sometimes circumstances just forbid two people to come to an understanding.

im just so tired and exhausted. it saps more out of me then i would care to show. and it haunts me when i lie in bed at night with nothing else to think about...goshgoshGOSH. WHY MUST IT BE SO COMPLICATED.

why can't everything just be the bare stupid truth with no twists and turns and masks and URGH. what, EGOISM? *breathe* sigh, forget it. maybe sometimes i don't get the full picture, or i don't get to understand that person i suppose. so.....sigh, forget it. maybe its not what it seems just plainly to be.

but im tired. tired of always getting the cut. tired of tolerating everything. tired of feeling so bad because ive hurt people unintentionally. i really don't want to keep everything inside and burst afterwards into this emotional little dolly. can we please please just be direct please? please...?


shucks. *breathe*

people that are just playing this game with me that's getting nowhere. now i don't even know whether its for real or for a game. please, PLEASE think of the greater good please...? the greater good and what REALLY is practical.... so all of us don't have to suffer that much in the long term..


Argh. im overly emotional;overly sensitive.
overly dumb.

and going crazy.

maybe that's what stress does to you. make you feel stuff you never really felt, eh?

1209AM.12May