i realise im blogging so much serious stuff nowadays im positive im having seriousnessoverdose syndromes. *gag.

ok.anw. i decided one fine day (actually yesterday) at the refridgerator *how do you spell that* that i should make a list of everything i love and be thankful for them. THUS. the series starts with FOOD i love ((:


1. VANILLA ICECREAM (some types of strawberry too!)+ chocolate chip cos they're 92% made up of vanilla:DD
2. MILK <3333333
3. CHEEEESE. (cheesecake,cheese sandwiches,cheddar cheese,cheese spread,cheese biscuits ETC<3333333)
4. milo (packet ones are REALLY nice)(:
5. semi-melted marshmellows (: (for some weird reason i think they represent love
cos they're so sweet and soft<3 and they make me oh-so-happy^^)
6. RICE. ok although its like o.O but i CANNOT live without rice. man does not like on bread alone indeed.(in sorely wrong context though but nvm:DD)
7. yakult -it rocks my life in little bottles:)
8. yogart (drinks)->strawberry!!
9. SOURSOP i think im addicted to that-_- i drink when i cant control my cravings. which is ard at least once every schooling day :DDD
10. FERORA ROCHER (did i spell it correctly?) it makes me smile when im feeling dark, round and insanely on the edge of nuttiness:)

wee! i have a nice list of TEN food i love:)

and SINCE justina WRONGLY ASSUMED that i was NOT going to spar; hurhurhur.; i am gg to make her treat me to a SOURSOP drink like she promise. *grins evily

YOUR FAULT LA HUR JUSTINA. although i don't see how it affected anything except make me calm down but nevermind :DDD hee.


yes,on the DARKER side; the food i absolutely terribly disgustingly CANNOT stand.take note and never let these foods appear within a 374m radius OKAY. i puke at these and i REALLY cant stomach them. NO MATTER how much u people say they rock ok/

1. EGG. this REALLY sucks. by egg i mean cakes and muffins and cupcakes that have too strong an egg smell too. and everything else that smells of egg. i'll feel like puking ard 1/2 hr later.

2. BANANAS> the fruit smells and the skin makes ppl slip to their deaths. a totally unedible food. like YUCK. my fave colour was never yellow for a reason. (i went back home BOTH times after fishbone and had a bad stomachache ok. BANANAS in my drink i had to make T-T)

3. TOMATOES. esp those small round ones that they sell in school. like YUCKK to the ends of the earth.they REALLY suck a lot. havent tasted those big ones though and im not thinking of trying anytime near-

*4. SPICYNESS. i think its nice but i cant bear the burning. so there/ (but the nice thing is i'll be obliged to drink MILK after that so its ok ((: )


wee again! yay ive only got 4 (or actually 3) stuff i *cant stand / hate. two of which i cant stomach NATURALLY so its not my fault :DDD

gee u know i think this FOOD fiesta is a subconcious reaction to my mom being late for dinner again. MY STOMACH IS HUNGRY. so am i. my poor stomach and me. SIGH

TODAY
i was feeling really depressed and everything just now. dejected. empty. and stuffstuffstuff, when i logged online and it was worst not seeing anyone i cld talk to online either. before that i went to sleep cos i felt so carved out of my insides; straight after getting down from all my thoughts and this huge bout of loneliness i felt on the bus. its not ninjado, no its wasnt the grading and it wasnt anyone's fault really but sorta all mine? anyways.

ha NOOO i don't have this split personality thingy when im blogging but after reading this reallyreally sad blog about a girl with all her problems and agony, angry and hurt...for some reason God helped me recognise that all this of mine isnt necessary actually/
that amidst problems that everyone faces differently there is joy. its not exactly this, the feelng's hard to explain..but i know that it was Him helping me lots<33

and well listing things i love (all that food up there:D )kinda made me joyful in heart and sweet in spirit(: i realise how much ive to be thankful for all my <3s :D and ha there're so much more in so many more places that stimes ive sorely taken for granted.

EVEN those disgusting foods-_=" sorta really make me appreciate all the food ive grown to love even more...so i sincerely give thanks for them too :)

i guess ive to be thankful for my com speakers not working as well or i'll find myself drowning in noisy songs and feeling worst.

OHYEAH im supposed to be doing hw. SIGH. i tried doing hw but :D nevermind. i got too depressed just now listening to my dear Classical Heartbreakers with songs from Chopin in The Pianist, that sickening depressing song from Schindler's List. and sad songs from Immortal Beloved, Titanic, the English Patient and everything. -_-

(oh talking about the English Patient, ive started reading the book just now! and it was depressing too.)

and most of the time i skip to the next song in the middle of the present one cos it got too depressing. like im not exaggerating ok. i think i only finished to the last song ONCE. cos i feel asleep with it.

anyways.
im blogging rubbish now cos im DESPERATELY waiting for my mom to come home and cook dinner. T-T;

lol ive really ran out of stuff to blog about :D alas, one does not run on an empty stomach you see. ok.-_=" i gotta feeling that was in the wrong context too. I CANT THINK PROPERLY>

anyway. something i found while trying to organise my stuff a little so i can actually START hw.(which i didnt, btw)


The heart is a fragile thing, thats why we protect it at all costs, and give it away so rarely, and how much it al means when we do. Some hearts are more pure than others, like crystal among glass, and even the way they shatter is beautiful.