the night shines outside my window, the sky pieced before me

and just now i was out blizzing! under that starry skyy with gone case retard rachel (i almost died but because of God's grace i was spared:DD) and serious faced joseph and za____ (LOL i dunno how to spell the name!)

haha...for the fishbone cafe this saturday! (7-9pm)at church@ I'LL BE MAKING DRINKS SO MUST COME SUPPORT ME! (no chips this time promise../hopefully/)

and there was this one man in the park, he was smoking under the pagoda..alone, in the middle of the park so late into the night when its so ulu.ha...lonliness must have been gripped at his heart.

when we attempted to explain to him about the cafe, we found out that he had came from china probably to work here. and seeing his state, he probably didnt have any frens either, therefore taking up smoking..and being alone under that pagoda with that so dim light lighting up the dark park.

when i asked if he knew the place (we were trying to give directions you see) he said he didnt know the place, although he didnt just came to Singapore. work must've his only thing he can do, occupying all of his time. and when he had free time, he's to spend it alone.

he didnt even try to get away or get a bit skeptical when we tried to talk to him...he didnt get what we were trying to say and just gave us a 10 dollar note. of cos we said no that wasnt what we wanted and all, and gave him a card...though he cant understand english im quite sure...cos he asked us to speak in chinese after our eng intro.

so..ha he's reached this state of lonliness when he just...i don'tknow, becomes solitary.that he doesnt even care...of whether these 2 girls are just cheating him of his money or whatever..life's almost seemed to lose all meaning for him at this point.that he just gives a 10 note without even fully understanding what he is giving.how lonely must he be, just sitting there alone, thinking of everything missing in his life, hoping that smoke can make him forget.how long has he been there? how many years already?

there's..so much sadness in this world- that God just wants to eradicate.how much more does it break His heart when even my heart becomes so flustered for this person i don't even know.ha...gee. i cant stop thinking of his eyes-of hopelessness. maybe because ive been through it before?i don't know.

but i want to have faith that God'll lead him to the cafe this saturday, and into a path forever onto Him..

so that God'll fill that lonliness inside.
and i know it'll somehow happen.