i am covered by a layer of dust. sand. whatever.*SCREAMS(oh yiting says its proven it takes 10mins from your life anw-the screaming thing)
ha ohmygdness me i will never sand a table ever again. if it can be helped. at least not with those HEAVY machine thingies that rotate sandpaper so fast it vibrates your hand like nuts and blows out all the sand and stuff into a beautiful fog that chokes you, makes your eyes water and turns white sch uniform to lightish brown.
it was interesting thought, the fog.
i shall learn to tolerate with my mom. is it unreasonable to look into all my hp msgs without asking permission first? she says she has every right. does she? im not even sure.
but i shall not grow up to be like my mom. yes i am determined.
sch work is piling again and ive to clear the mountain fast.first day of sch and its physically draining already. this week we have THREE hours of physics> which is crazy.and i hope my wrist can handle wed's training.cant even put strength without hurting it.
why am i letting all these weight me down?
should i be just be talking and not actually doing? haha.
ive to ponder no more and start moving. a vow does no good if its broken.
and ive reached a point where i know i cant do ANYTHING in my capability. and so i'll just pray. shouldve recognized it long before.
but God'll still come.and there's nothing he cant do..like so many times before.
His amazing grace.
who can love me such as much?
tsesin 
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