its me in the night after an end.
and im more relieved than sad now i think.ha i certainly hope it's not one of those lying to myself rubbish again.well after a few days i'll know for sure.
and i know that partly(or actually a VERY big part) im not feeling the pain of a lost and im not crying -not like i do easily but WELL its sorta expected- is cause i know there's God there.
and i think back of what we sorta touched on today, that God sometimes takes things away because He wants us to go back to him, or test our faith. or in this case, raise more faith in Him.
now i understand. darn i should have more faith/
well its ok.its still ok, for now. God will fill that empty space.
darn insecurity.
tsesin 
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