i hardly have any strength left to do homework that piles up against me.and i have a mount everest comparable.omg...h a. :/D
im so tired i can cry. wished i'd skipped school today like justina..YOU HEAR ME>


mindy had a headache today. evelyn had a headache. and i was fine. till now. and that stupid My Immortal is just so darn addictive ok. take my word. aRGGH. and the tune just makes me feel so sad OKAY. S-T-U-P-I-D me. dumbass me.


at aep we had like pig free time so i did this abstract thing that supposingly expresses how i feel. like. NOWADAYS. freaking NOWADAYS. but well no one could figure it out. so whatever.

wish i'll just faint during obs next week. which isnt very easy to accomplish.

meantime....? im so sososososososososo not supposed to say this. but someone come help kill me cleaner. really. i should just fling myself out there and kill myself(:


i cant find a single breathing soul on this earth who might actually understand without imposing judgement.
-either you understand, don't impose judgement. but don't bloody listen.
-or you understand and impose YOUR harsh judgement.
-or you don't even understand, and you want to carve your own bloody conclusions from me. go away ok.its not a question.

cant people just frigging stop judging.

im so sick of always listening to others because im about to crumble myself ok. im so tired of always being that supporting pillar for someone. i don't hold anything against anyone. but. im ready to burst with everything inside ok. its all tangled and black and bloody with all the misery and whatever that pushes you to the edge of your sanity like me now.

im feeling so DUMB now ok because im complaining like shit here about something i decide to do. but NONONONONONO. not one freaking freaking freaking soul

*screams*

faint. then maybe i'll wake up to a nicer dream.