HA

i hate my mom. i hate her i hate her i hate her.im not supposed to.but.i cant stand it.

i really really really cannot stand it.


ive a headache in the morning.
i didnt want to go to school.

BECAUSE when my sister heard me as 'i have a stomachache and didnt want to go to school' and so cutely reported back to my mom now she thinks im skipping school just cause i DON'T WANT TO GO TO SCHOOL and HAVENT FINISHED MY HOMEWORK. which she has absolutely no FREAKING evidence of. let me tell you cause she THINKS im like that to her it MEANS im like that.

now she doesnt want to sign the excuse letter, and she doesnt ALLOW my dad to sign it too. UNREASONABLE. i don't want to say anything else.


when i tell her its really cause i have a headache and i WON'T BE ABLE TO CONCENTRATE IN CLASS you know what beautiful reason she told me?

"OUR FAMILY DOESNT HAVE THIS RULE OF NOT DOING WHAT WE'RE SUPPOSED TO JUST BECAUSE OF SOME STUPID SMALL AILENT."

HA. not like i don't know my own condition ok i WON'T be able to concentrate in class AT ALL at my state then then probably go to the sick bay again.then.WHAT IS THE DIFFERENCE.


my dear mother understands me so, so much. she refuses to sign that, leaving me with NO living route or whatsoever again.AGAIN. ha.

lovely.just lovely.

and when i act as if her spiteful words arent affecting me she says how can someone CHANGE SO MUCH???? and that im like lai4 si3. hopeless. good for nothing. and WHATEVER i do is just plain DUMB and ok. pls i was scolded just because of the way i took out this piece of salmon during dinner. i didnt SPILL ANYTHING OK. its just cos the way i took it out LOOKED VERY SIAN. and because i put my leg on another chair for comfort purposes PLUS the DUMB way i took out that salmon im turning to uselessly GANGSTERISH.

someone who has a TERRIBLE BEYOND HOPE ATTITUDE PROBLEM, DOESNT CARE ABOUT HER FUTURE, UNCULTURED, ALWAYS SKIPS SCHOOL. she treats me like plain shit la ok. oh, as im typing now she's throwing my stuff around in my room.like. im not exaggerating. she's THROWING MY STUFF AROUND cos its messy to her. and my room probably has LOTS and LOTS of bacteria and germs. im turning to a unhygienic person too.yay! cos don't even BOTHER practising basic hygiene.she tells me that EVERYDAY. that im shit. that's what lai4 si3 is, isnt it?


oh, she tells my dad: can you go inside the room to watch tv? we cant let THAT PERSON occupy TWO ROOMS u know. (did i forget to mention it was sarcastically spiteful)
im not the only one.

to my younger brother, she says:
Come, ask your daddy see. Come, because he doesnt know ANYTHING.

i didnt do ANYTHING TO ANYONE ok.its ok she doesnt understand im trying to struggle with this sudden loss,something that happened just yesterday.that its so hard when i cant even THINK of it or it'll be too hard to swallow. ITS OK SHE DOESNT KNOW. BUT SHE DOESNT HAVE TO MAKE MY LIFE HELL.

its ok she freezed my phone because she thinks ive got an attitude problem and she can gloat to me after that that i don't have to think i control everything. AND I DON'T THINK THAT WAY BTW.
i just pretend what she says doesnt affect me because they cut a lot, esp when you hear them everyday and this is what i get.more knives thrown at me, because im turning ignorant and cold and STUBBORN.

and when i can't STAND EVERYTHING ANYMORE i say sth back,and the next moment we're fighting.

I CANT STAND IT ANYMORE.

this is hell.

i hate her hate her hate her to bits.