why am i so distracted today..

firstly.
grading results were out in the ninjado forum thing,and you know i go there everyday cos i have nothing better to do and i didnt realise the results were out already.

secondly.
during warm up i totally forgot..or i dunno what,that my partner's done with stretching both legs and i was even wondering why i was suppose to stretch already when my partner's not done.i actually forgot THAT.

and i realized i cant recall yayan's face.seriously,not for nuts..keeps mixing it up with trixie and theresa's face.what the.i REALLY cant recall.ohmygosh..its freaky when you try really hard but you only can conjure up this white blank...

memories gone.*puff; and just gone.

thirdly.(or fourthly..whatever)
yay i left BOTH my sticks in the toliet in jurong spring cc.and i didnt even notice until i got down the bus and was walking slowly back home.cos i was thinking why my wrist wasnt hurting.


im so freaked out...about not remembering yayan's face

i really cant remember..really cant recall...

and the thing is this is like not the only time;
its happened quite a lot of times before where i really dun get the names of things or people till its explained or shown,and those names will only sound a little familiar..like a echo in the back of my head.

and only that.

and if i voice it out..some people think im purposely being like that,and for what,fun?
right.


why am i like that..now?at fourteen??
what if one day i cannot remember the things that i treasure..
what if one day i cannot remember the people i love..
none of the faces; none of the names;
what if one day i cannot even remember my whole lifefull of memories..

what would i have..then....

what would i have