church camp! for the Lord, not anyone else. go if ure willing to-for no other reason than that. if only you knew now much i want for you to go. for no other reason than that.
ale con'td to pray! im going to pray too!
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im so tired
oh mindy i hate you for reassuring my fears. but then again.maybe its good to step out of this whole illusion.
in class listening to disney tracks through the speaker *tired smile
__ _____ so heavy its tiresome.
when is the gate of this jail cell finally going to open? sometimes i suspect i have the key, just that i dun want to.
hmm do you think im dumb? i realise..im not really angry i guess. wow.just..? lol
ive made so many mistakes these few weeks/ sorry jolyn;really..
too tired to play on this dumb game anymore, nowadays my dreams leave me so..restless. and sweating. sometimes it leaves me so knotted inside when i wake up in the morning.
ah gdness aladin's 'a whole new world' is beautiful.
i need a whole new point of view. a whole new world:)
from now onwards. im not going to care that my mom is not returning my hp. its good for me>now that i see i was making a big fuss over nothing yesterday.im not going to care now. no use.
no more calls. zero.
till after exams. if i still have the courage to face up.
whatever.
for now, im going to my mug world. don't come aknocking.
matters of...the heart? - are outside the door. whatever out of this world is non-existent.
just 3 weeks. only 3more weeks.
if i can get through these 3 weeks without breaking down. my challenge to myself.
`[a whole new world...with new horizons to pursue...*
i will not allow myself to falter
tsesin 
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