I should go on a solo midnight movie one of these days.
To numb my mind.
But im probably not allowed now that the exams are 5 weeks away and counting. To be exact, 36 days away and counting.
36 days.
Then again.
Not like im going to be allowed even when exams are over. Maybe wait another decade or two.
Things are so hard. there always seem to be a higher hurdle right behind the one you just managed to hurl yourself over.
And i constantly wonder why- why do i drag myself into an endless pit every single time.
like now.
Wonder why sometimes people just don't notice. or they just aren't affected while you're drowning behind your dead smiling eyes. And sometimes you wonder if they're also like that..
You reach out, but find yourself catching hold of nothingness, only bringing back your own despair.
but still smiling. always smiling.
Everyone has their own set of problems. Am i being... whine-y, complain-y. whatever there is under the sun. if we can find the sun at all.
Comfort, though -i find only at the end of the day on my knees, in my bed. before the dreams'
.:Tonight. shall be the last night of this melancholy.
Tomorrow I shall be smiling again.
tsesin 
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