totally impossible? maybe not.

is everything js another illusion- i want to be proven wrong. but i don't dare to take up the dice. i don't think i want to either.

for it will result in only either of the two endings.]


prove me wrong..

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my mom js came back frm the parent meeting session :)
no comments but she rocks..details private :))


i have to work harder..grades not as good as i wld like it to be. i suppose i havent been putting in enough effort. ok nvm tt was crap cos its rather OBVIOUS.

was wondering what i wld be if God wasn't in my life. haa...maybe i'll be extremely angry and violent n vulgar [ooO...]

and totally lost too..
thank God He's there for me.


don't understand why ppl choose to be so vulgar. i dun really think that's iz um, COOL ya noe. i just don't understand~ or maybe i do. there was a period of time when was so freaking vulgar.

sometimes lyk do u really need to be vulgar so u'll feel and be accepted? -so that you can appear cool n all..

lol dunno y im saying all this. toking to no1 in particular..serious. don't want to judge ppl.



yeah ms chee is nice..shall miss her lots when our sci tr is replaced nxt term..& must practise drawing alrdy.......
my art's getting suckier and suckier~~!

art is important to me k..its my life.and more.


being happy is important.have to remember that and not be so grouchy towards things in life. gta spend less time wadding in my com pixels too. spoiling my eyes and wasting precious time. i want2 finish hw as fast as possible..dont' want to drag till the last weekend AGAIN.


mom went to malaysia again today just after she came home after the parent meeting session thingy.for "a short while"- according to her

must be cos she was quarrelling with my dad this morning,freakingly loudly, and he conviniently asked her to get out of the hse -of cos in a EXTREMELY NICE tone.

i seriously do not noe how to relate to my dad. stimes i watch tv programmes and see the close bond between the daughter and the dad n i kinda envy them. or like sujah and her dad too. or my cousin yallini with her dad.
a bond is nothing like what we have between me n my dad.

but most of the time i don't think about it anyway beCOS 1. it has been like this from like since, forever? 2.ive never been close to him anyway so i dunno what im missing out n THUS i don't really care.

besides, i have more problems at hand.

---yea but im happy with my life..i try not to make more problems and to forgive and put the nasty past behind.

*except for one exception -that i'll never forget.

sigh
nvm.

nevertheless im quite proud that i didnt snap when my dad make me so hopping mad and when had to sit in his car and listen to him scold me becos he was angry with my mom.

just sat there not talking but was so freaking mad. in the end he cooled down a bit, realised his mistake and he tried to undo it but i DUN WANT TO NOE. urgh- no apologies, no freaking NOTHING.

forget it.i dun wanna get angry over it again.


]zith